From mean to upper limits

A couple of years back when I was a small girl, I couldn’t wait for the months and years to pass by for the day when June 16th would reach and I turn 13 (THIRTEEN)! Be teenage, I couldn’t wait for the years to fly by again and again for me to turn 16 yes sweet sixteen we used to call it and later on to finally turn 18, be an adult, get an ID rule the world……or so I thought. Now am not so sure what I feel about my imminent birthday in another 3 or so months. Maybe am scared of entering the phase that will mark the commencement of my late twenties years or perhaps that's the way it always is when one make’s that change from one age bracket to another like turning 21 or 31 (though i cant ever recall having such a feeling). Am not certain which direction the captain is going to steer the ship once it hits 26!!

Back when I was in primary I couldn’t wait for the day when I would go to high school and after that for the time I would join campus and thereafter for when I could start working and be independent. Now that am there I realise that the demands are greater than what I had ever imagine I was only after the golden eggs but now I need to also take care of the goose. I not only want to make it big and rich, I want a job that satisfies one where at the end of the day makes me feel good and one where I cant wait to be at the next day. This leaves with me with even bigger decisions like which direction to further my education and career, appreciating that we are all unique and successful in our own different ways. Its just not what everyone else is doing Is what makes true significance and adds value to an individuals life.

A couple of years back I couldn’t wait for the day when I would get my own place, regardless of the size and what was inside…all I cared about was being able to open my own place and have no one ask me where am from or why does it look so messed up and so on and so forth. Now I ask myself for how long will I keep paying rent, when will I get a place that I can call mine a real home and what do I need to do to get there. The 'old' and 'motherly' duties that I had neglected back at home I now have to embrace with a smile. The free spirit for disappearing from the house for many weekends has been tamed for now I have to be responsible for me.

I have become more aware of time I can feel it passing by day by day, good thing the swimming and the other small time exercises I do make me feel youthful, brisk, full of life, bouncy and all that. Procrastination is killing me now more than it had before. I need to fight the good battle, awaken the giant inside and work for a bright and better tomorrow.
Just as we grow older with the rising sun each and every morning self motivation and personal inspiration is a virtue that has to take a similar course. The changes in life are dynamic one day you feel like everything is going south and the next day you feel like things are advancing northwards. Everyone has a special way of dealing with life’s dynamism's, at times I refer to my mission statement, at times the inspiration books I read help me to forge on and at times I pour it out on my blog.

I pray and hope you have something that helps you to stay afloat, to redefine you north every so often because without that you'd be lost in this jungle.