8/11/2009

Giving it my best


I wish that I was lying on a hammock, somewhere blissful and beautiful. With nothing on my mind but total peace, tranquillity and serenity. Sipping some sweet cocktail. The birds in the air singing to me, while I softly rock myself. Counting my blessing and marvelling at God’s creation and beauty.....admiring the blue skies while the sun rays gently burn my skin.

Ohhh how I would love for that to get me out of this tiredness. It’s too early in the day for me to be feeling like this and I haven’t even written down my to do list for the day. While change is inevitable adapting to new things takes a while and to move one’s state of mind from one level to the other can be quite strenuous .......explains the headaches. Taking each of life’s moment in a positive way has and is my guiding principle but sometimes trying to stick to the guiding principle can be as hard as not having any.

A good steward is one who takes challenges as opportunities. Who when they are given something like the parable in the bible goes forth to multiple it and not bury it in some hole just to present the same same gift back to their master.

The Bible says, “Is your life full of difficulties and temptations? Then be happy, for when the way is rough, your patience has a chance to grow. So let it grow, and don’t try to squirm out of your problems. For when your patience is finally in full bloom, then you will be ready for anything, strong in character, full and complete” (James 1:2–4 LB).

And with that I will put my holiday plans on hold for a little while and get ready to face the day with a bright smile. For at the end of it all, I need to be accountable.

8/06/2009

Tempatations

Please take me home with you, ours will be a sweet relationship, a sweet romance like for the shoe and the shopper. You need me more than you would like to confess, i know you have been looking for something like this for a while now and today you found it. Your epiphany moment has finally come. I can finally be yours!

Never have i ever been tormented like i was yesterday evening. Shopping and window shopping is always a pleasure but trouble began when everything i seemed to set my eyes upon was the perfect size which could go into filling some hole in my wardrobe never mind the size of the hole.

From the perfect shoes, the perfect top not to mention right colour which would complement my skin colour to the perfect lingerie which would make me feel extremely sexy. That was a real test of self will, only thing that saved me i think was the bigger picture. Been saving for quite a while now and i didn’t think i wanted to let those 'big' temptation to come in the way of my item of desire and I.

I might have won the battle yesterday but the war still persists. What will i do when i walk into those stores a couple of days from now and find the same things waiting for me, my heart beats faster when i think about that. Will i keep fighting or should i surrender and say fate is bringing us together. We were just meant to be.