Continue being plus size

This year i have made so many visits to the hospital, i think enough to match up all my life's visit to the hospital. What i am wondering is, does the principle of 'when you smile to the world it smile back' or 'when you give you get many returns back' in that, when you start going to hospital you keep going back and back? Or could it be because there are such handsome doctors where i go? My prayer is that God continues to bless me with good health as it has been in the past.

I will leave out the details as to why i was making the visits. So I finally managed to have them prick at my veins and draw blood a procedure that i have never allowed any doctor or nurse to carry out on me, dont ask how i got by with some things. True to the technicians words it was not as painful as i thought and i thank him 'remotely' for being extremely patient with me throughout the exercise. What he failed to mention is that my arm would ache for the next couple of days, nevertheless i forgive him.

The interpretation of the results is what annoyed me, everything else was ok besides my red blood cells count. Fine fine, i know that i might be a little underweight just a little and i work on that but to hear that my red blood cells count was low and that i might be a little anemic was not good news at all.

With all the healthy living that i do, talk of traditional vegetables and am in, natural this and that finds themselves in my house, i even cook my ugali nowadays with 'incasa amaranth' flour leave alone the fact that the flour is so hard to cook with i cant dare prepare it for a visitor. Gosh, i even cook omenas!

Clearly there is nothing funky with being thin not when the doctor tries to give you some high school lecture on nutrition! Now that the world seems to rotate around the plus sized women and tips for this and that on them, my advice would be, continue being plus size well for as long as your health. Follow all the tips they may have for you other than the weight loosing tips because surely the grass aint as green as you think on this side.

Tempatations

Please take me home with you, ours will be a sweet relationship, a sweet romance like for the shoe and the shopper. You need me more than you would like to confess, i know you have been looking for something like this for a while now and today you found it. Your epiphany moment has finally come. I can finally be yours!

Never have i ever been tormented like i was yesterday evening. Shopping and window shopping is always a pleasure but trouble began when everything i seemed to set my eyes upon was the perfect size which could go into filling some hole in my wardrobe never mind the size of the hole.

From the perfect shoes, the perfect top not to mention right colour which would complement my skin colour to the perfect lingerie which would make me feel extremely sexy. That was a real test of self will, only thing that saved me i think was the bigger picture. Been saving for quite a while now and i didn’t think i wanted to let those 'big' temptation to come in the way of my item of desire and I.

I might have won the battle yesterday but the war still persists. What will i do when i walk into those stores a couple of days from now and find the same things waiting for me, my heart beats faster when i think about that. Will i keep fighting or should i surrender and say fate is bringing us together. We were just meant to be.